I cede

There is so much darkness surrounding me..
I can not see my shadow...
I can not feel my sorrow....

With a broken smile..I have lived so far...
Leaving myself behind...I wanna go..too far....


I jumped into the sea....I went deep..
Nothing to lose..and no promises to keep....
I was happy with me...Love..I found,
Death loved me...and I drowned...


Call it my bad luck...I found myself on bed....
soon I felt ...I was not dead...
It made me scream..
Oh NO!! I had lost my dream...

I want it back.....and I know I cant...
but now I know what I truly want..

They said....I lived in my dreams....
and today I felt they were true indeed....
I was not afraid....I was not scared...
Felt her love and I was blessed..

Enough of thoughts....
Enough I cried...
To lift the curse...
NOW I DECIDE.....

Lets put a bullet in my head....
and give my thoughts...a true friend....


-Nithin Manakkat